Editor’s Note: This material was sent to us from a prison from a convicted child molester.  As Editor, I have chosen to publish it, without any editing, to offer an opening to others to understand something more about those who sexually abuse children.  Whatever a reader may think of the content of the material, it is an effort by a child molester to produce a primary prevention approach.

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CHILD SEXUAL MOLESTATION
Recognizing, Stopping, Surviving
From Victim, To Molester, To survivor

INTRODUCTION

My name is Randall Blake and I am currently committed at the Big Muddy Correctional Center in Ina, Illinois under the Sexually Dangerous Persons Act.  I have no release date as I am here for therapy in the Sex Offender Treatment Program.  I was arrested on the 13th of July, 1995 and have been in this program for over six years.  You may ask why I even bother to do this as I have no release date.  The reason is YOU, each and everyone who is reading this now.

I have made a total of 14 contact victims, both male and female, ranging in ages from 6 to 19 years old.  The number of secondary victims belonging, not only to my victims’ families, but to my own also are uncountable.  What I have done is now almost unbearable to me now that I reflect upon it.

Thankfully, God has given me the courage to set myself out to you and take responsibility for my action.  As embarrassing and humiliating to me as it is, it is nothing in comparison with the harm I have caused to my victims.  I pray that by reading this, it will help you to believe when a child tells you about something like this and you will help him, or her, to get the treatment and justice they need to become survivors in a healthy way.  Let them know you care and that with God all things are possible.

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Personal Stories, Advice, and Support

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He Did It . 

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